because He love me..

there's lots of thing playing in my mind, dancing in my heart and soul, walking on a small lane in my heart. they will disappear for a while and come back without any invitation. sometimes i feel so bad because of them, but i just can't let them go. they make my life meaningful. they showed me the meaning of living. they gave me the strength to live my life. nothing last forever, so they are. so i don't need to be worry. that's why i still walking on my own legs in His world. hope.. when the time He want me to leave His world, i will go in peace.. under His bless. i believe, all the thing He gave me is the best thing for me.. because i know, He love me.

saya telah kembali

saya kini kembali ke tempat sepatutnya saya berdiri
selagi perjuangan ini belum selesai
sepatutnya saya perlu terus di sini
beberapa ketika saya berdiam diri
hanya kerana saya telah pergi untuk memberi ruang pada diri
semoga kepulangan ini
akan membuahkan hasil seperti yang diimpi
semoga segalanya mendapat restu Ilahi

tiada kata yang mampu saya terjemah
tapi yang nyata saya sunyi apabila dia hilang dari sisi
jika mampu, saya mahu pegang dia di sisi
tapi, yang nyata dia bukan hak milik hakiki

when my finger want to speak..

it was such a virus in my mind lately. a thing that can switch my mood easily. something that always make me feel terrible. and something that drive me crazy.

today, after a talk with somebody that very close to me, i think i had made the decision. but, it still not the final. maybe i'll change it while the time pass me by. i almost know what i want. but, i still need to consider certain things that may leave tattoos in my life IF, i ignore it.

nothing last forever. and maybe this is the only way. as i need to spend money for a very charming dress, as i need to stay awake to finish a very fantastic movie.. i need to sacrifice something to have something. maybe this is the best among the worst. if toad can change into a prince charming. why the worst thing can't be the best? who knows.

i'm posting this entry just to spell out what was playing in my brain. sometimes, it is more easier to spell it out rather than to speak it out.

warm hugs,

honey lemon