tiada kata yang mampu saya terjemah
tapi yang nyata saya sunyi apabila dia hilang dari sisi
jika mampu, saya mahu pegang dia di sisi
tapi, yang nyata dia bukan hak milik hakiki

"hidup ini kadang-kala membosankan

tapi kita perlu juga teruskan

kita tiada pilihan"

**kata-kata yang saya keluarkan semasa final year. saya masih ingat... bersama roommate.. tensen dengan perangai seorang perempuan hipokrit.. apekah khabar roommate dan perempuan itu?

just wanna be honest for tonight. be honest to myself...
i'm not as cool as i thought. i'm not as good as i thought. i'm not a good daughter either. and i'm not a very good friend. yes.. that's what i am. sometimes, i'm enjoy bitching about others. lying to a friend just because i don't wanna hurt their feelings. trying to control my emotion but i just can't. i'm hurting people. at a point, i was the other woman in somebody's relationship and i know it, but i just don't wanna move.i'm holding inside my feeling. i'm not walk my word. i asked others to be brave, but i'm always be affraid. i'm telling you that i'm fine, but i'm hurt inside.

i just can't state everything in here because i'm not that brave. but yes.. i admit that i'm not as cool as i said, as you think.i'm weak. i'm a loser in many ways. i need a hand that can hold me, bring me back to the right track, to the cool lane, to the brighter world. i need your hand because i've choosed you to be my friends.