just wanna be honest for tonight. be honest to myself...
i'm not as cool as i thought. i'm not as good as i thought. i'm not a good daughter either. and i'm not a very good friend. yes.. that's what i am. sometimes, i'm enjoy bitching about others. lying to a friend just because i don't wanna hurt their feelings. trying to control my emotion but i just can't. i'm hurting people. at a point, i was the other woman in somebody's relationship and i know it, but i just don't wanna move.i'm holding inside my feeling. i'm not walk my word. i asked others to be brave, but i'm always be affraid. i'm telling you that i'm fine, but i'm hurt inside.

i just can't state everything in here because i'm not that brave. but yes.. i admit that i'm not as cool as i said, as you think.i'm weak. i'm a loser in many ways. i need a hand that can hold me, bring me back to the right track, to the cool lane, to the brighter world. i need your hand because i've choosed you to be my friends.