seorang sahabat..

dia..masih sahabat saya. dia masih lagi saya ingat. dia masih lagi dalam hati saya. walaupun sudah membuat saya hampir gila. dia masih sahabat saya. beberapa hari yang lepas dia membuatkan saya meradang. terhambur isi hati saya pada dia. dia cakap itu gurauan. tapi pada saya, itu satu tekanan. cubaan menjatuhkan semangat saya untuk terus berada di tempat saya berdiri dan meneruskan perjalanan yang telah saya aturkan. apa hak dia untuk mempertikaikan semua rancangan saya. dia memang begitu. setiap kali dia muncul, itu satu kewajipannya.

malang untuknya, hari itu bukan hari yang baik untuk dia. hari itu, saya telah melepaskan apa yang terbuku di hati. dengan tegas saya meluahkan. emosi.. dia cuba bertenang. macam tak salah apa2. tetapi, saya yang keras hati dan degil, tegas jadi batu. diam..

sejak tu, tiada lagi sapaan dari dia. sesungguhnya, ketahuilah..saya sudah maafkan dia. saya bukan pendendam. saya masih seperti dulu. kemarahan saya cepat hilang. tetapi, satu persolan untuk dia, kenapa susah sangat nak minta maaf. sejak dulu, itulah dia...ego. perkara paling mudah untuk menyejukkan hati saya adalah ayat "saya minta maaf". sila ambil perhatian tentang ini. mudahkan. cuma dia yang tak tahu. tak tahu atau ego? saya tiada jawapan.. dia ada

DAMN!!! I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE~~

why i have to be right here..
somewhere that i really hate..
why i have to be right here..
somewhere that make me mad..
why i have to be right here..
somewhere that make me sad..
why i have to be right here..
somewhere that i never like..
why i have to be right here..
somewhere that can make me cry..
why i need to be right here..
somewhere that nothing is alright..

I JUST HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE!!!
it's all what i know..
it's all about this place..
it's all about the sorrow..
it's all about the sadness..
it's all about the madness..
please bring me to my origins..
i miss that place..

the light behind the dark clouds.. :)

lately..i always posting entries about something that i really..really want..and i just don't know if i can get it or not. but,at the same time..i forget about something..something that i need..not something that i want..

something that we need is more important than what we want right?

so..here is the story..

i was drowning by something that i want. and i feel so sad when i'm thinking about it. everyday..the feeling just like a virus in my heart. it become worst and spread to the whole my little, small heart..JUST MAKE ME SAD!

suddenly, something that i need come without any sign..something that i almost forgot about it. and when it comes..i feel..the whole world are smiling at me. the light behind the dark clouds just shining at me. thanks Allah. You gave me a very good news. thanks for the gift..i just love it!!

~bersyukur kerana saye tahu Allah masih sayangkan saye..Alhamdulillah~

in the eyes of the world

we are standing on the top

we are afraid of falling down

we are up high

up above the sky

sometimes

we just forget where we've start

at the bottom

down low

almost drowned in the water

now

here we are

at the top of the world

standing with the pride

and

proud with what we've done

we left the ugly memory

we built our glory